When I was growing up, my mom used to quote her dad: Either do it right, or don't do it at all. I live by this, unwittingly- which is why it's so miraculous and dumbfounding that I haven't yet applied it to my romances and relationships. But no longer!
Mom and I saw the Help today. It was fantastic, though heart wrenching for her (it takes a lot for me to have my heart torn at by a movie); she grew up in the same type of maid-raising-the-chillens situation. Anyways, it struck me in the middle of it all, this thought:
I want a roll of thunder type of love.
I don't want to settle. I am so very sick of settling. I don't want romance; romance is just flowers and having to look good all the time and kisses and sugar coated lies to make you feel good. I want the raw, unmistakable, powerful love that just takes your breath away. The kind that says "So what if you look like death? I don't care. Not at all." The kind that isn't afraid to yell and scream.
I think that's the main difference between actual love and what we think is love but is actually romance- the anger. When you love someone, you aren't afraid to show every side of yourself- the good, the bad, the ugly. Romance has to be prim and proper all the time. I hate that.
So I am going to just move on... waiting for my roll of thunder.
Mom and I saw the Help today. It was fantastic, though heart wrenching for her (it takes a lot for me to have my heart torn at by a movie); she grew up in the same type of maid-raising-the-chillens situation. Anyways, it struck me in the middle of it all, this thought:
I want a roll of thunder type of love.
I don't want to settle. I am so very sick of settling. I don't want romance; romance is just flowers and having to look good all the time and kisses and sugar coated lies to make you feel good. I want the raw, unmistakable, powerful love that just takes your breath away. The kind that says "So what if you look like death? I don't care. Not at all." The kind that isn't afraid to yell and scream.
I think that's the main difference between actual love and what we think is love but is actually romance- the anger. When you love someone, you aren't afraid to show every side of yourself- the good, the bad, the ugly. Romance has to be prim and proper all the time. I hate that.
So I am going to just move on... waiting for my roll of thunder.
